[Journal Post]

[danse_etoile]

Asami is a handful. She's 5 and still talks like a motormouth, gets into rooms and places I swear are locked or have been child proofed from access. And I do worry about the art she's picking up from Yubel. (Not that I mind Yubel's art myself but it's a bit morbid for a child.)

And I'm still not sure where the red hair comes from as I'm blonde as is my mother, and my brother and father are brunettes, and Judai's sort of a dishwater brown with some strawberry blonde-ish elements?

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... I keep getting stories about the Old Annex of the school being haunted by something. And I've been seeing more crows flying about. And I feel like we didn't have an old Annex, and yet, the paperwork keeps saying it's always been there...

Hrm, I should do a sweep of it one night...

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A small publisher has approached me about collecting my blog posts I've written about being a teacher and observations about superhuman, hybrid and non-human children, apparently wanting to keep me anonymous by calling me Angela Dearlove as the Nom de Plume.

Comments

[longingfreesia]

You saw the shape of the world?
I guess you don't mean like the actual shape of the Earth, but seeing the world in a way that no-one naturally sees it?

[danse_etoile]

Yes.

And it reminds me of a meeting I had with someone who I wish to keep anonymous.

"For I know the true shape of the world..."
"For all the lights in the sky are..."

And I can never remember the last word. But for a moment, when I was attacked by one of the Shinobirds who was after Fujiwara Yusuke's notes...

I guess the best way I could put it is I felt like a three dimensional person in Flatland.

[longingfreesia]

Hmm, it definitely seems like you tapped into something, but... it's not happened again since?

[danse_etoile]

No.

I think. I might have had an almost similar experience back in high school, but that was close to two decades ago and my memories from the incident are muddled.

... But I also had an experience like 2-3 years ago, where I got turned into a monster by a crystal...

I could have sworn I heard the voice of angels.

It's frustrating.

I keep touching the edge of something and yet I feel blind.

[longingfreesia]

Hmm, I guess it can be difficult if you have no idea what it is or how to access it.

Something triggered my demon abilities, but because I didn't know about it or even how to use it, the power just built up until it caused a backlash.

But I'd say that there is definitely a part of you that's tapping into something that's not usually possible. Seeing, experiencing and hearing things on another level beyond normal capability.

It seems they're all tied to various incidents though? So maybe it's something that you can access when something big and stressful happens? Like maybe a survival mode?

[danse_etoile]

Maybe. But I'd prefer something I can rely on than something I have to hope works.

[longingfreesia]

Yeah, that makes sense.
I hope you're able to figure it out, Asuka-san.

[danse_etoile]

Let's hope.